AITA for crashing the ship and putting everyone at risk while trying to be a good captain?

| (30M) am the captain of a spaceship with a crew of seven. Things started to fall apart when my crew made some huge mistakes. To make a long story short, I accidentally raped one of the crew members, Anya (29F) and the guilt started to eat away at me. I panicked, and crashed the ship by mistake.

I also found out that my ex-crew member Swansea (50) was hiding a cryo pod that could save one person for 20 years. But it was clear that there was no way to rescue us in time. Things only got worse. I watched helplessly as our mistakes caught up with me, and Anya took her life. Daisuke died and then Swansea tried to kill me when he figured out the truth. I had no choice but to kill him to protect myself. Now, the only two left alive are me and Curly. I've kept him alive by cannibalizing his leg to keep us both going, feeding him pieces of himself so that I wouldn't starve alone. We've run out of food, and the life support is almost gone. There's only one cryo pod left, and I'm the one who put I've kept him alive by cannibalizing his leg to keep us both going, feeding him pieces of himself so that I wouldn't starve alone. We've run out of food, and the life support is almost gone.

There's only one cryo pod left, and I'm the one who put Curly in it because he didn't deserve the suffering, but I'll have to face judgment for everything l've done. So, AITAH for at least trying to be a good captain?