I can’t get over this crush.

I (18F) have been crushing on this guy for months. No advice I received is at all helpful and I just want to get over him.

I entered college and joined a student organization. In this organization of a few hundred, we are split up in groups of 10ish. These groups are who you’ll be with for the rest of college. They’re full of freshmen to seniors, so people join and leave when they enter or graduate college. The guy I like is in my group. I cannot stress how much you hang out with your group. You eat dinner weekly together, you party together, you go to events together, you go to practice together, etc. You’ll easily spend hundreds of hours with them just in one year. Because of that, it would be awful to like somebody in your group. The group dynamic would be shifted and feelings would be weird. I cannot confess to him just to get rejected, and I can’t distance myself from him either.

However, I understand what he meant when he said he’s been told he seems like he’s interested in girls when he really isn’t. He’s genuinely so nice to me and has always taken care of me. Whenever something happens that’s even mildly embarrassing to me he always reassures and tells me his own experiences. The way he always looks into my eyes and takes responsibility for things. He’ll randomly compliment things I do or my work and is always making me feel so welcomed and included. As I said, I recently entered college so I’m a freshman. He’s the only one who has treated me as an equal yet still helped me grow. He’s the only person I think of all day. I can’t think of any cons or icks about him, just genuinely one of the sweetest souls I have ever met. I’m losing sleep, I can’t study, I don’t know what to do. I cannot confess my feelings. I cannot talk to anybody in the group about this. I will not leave the group or organization. Please, if there’s any advice I will take it.