Is anybody else extremely self-conscious?

I have this thing where I am incredibly self conscious in general in social situations, but especially about my face and the expressions I’m making. I go to AA meetings, and it’s hard to focus on the actual meeting and what people are sharing because I literally can’t stop thinking and worrying about my face, my body language, what people are thinking of me, etc. I also just started a masters program and whenever I’m in class I’m incredibly paranoid that people are looking at me and judging me, and I try to make the right facial expression but it never feels like I’m doing it right. I also have the same issue when I’m talking to someone I don’t know super well, like I try to be present and listen but I can’t stop worrying about what my face is conveying.

I desperately want to just appear normal or, even better, for no one to look at me ever, but the crazy thing is I can rationally tell myself that no one’s looking at me and yet I still don’t actually believe it.

It makes me feel like a bad person sometimes because I feel like I’m being self-centered by focusing on how I’m coming off to other people so much, but I literally can’t not focus on it, I’ve tried. The only time I’m ever not self conscious like this is when I was drunk, when I’m with very close friends/family (but it still happens with them to a lesser degree), and when I’m alone.