Sad over gender of baby

Hey,

If you wanna judge go ahead I already do feel horrible about it.

I have a little girl (2.5), I'm 26 weeks pregnant and I'm having another girly. I am excited, the house we have has a "walk through closet"?? It's the strangest thing, but I'm already so excited to make it their little secret nook. They will have this secret passage to each other, hopefully they will always have a best friend in each other.

I found out her gender at 14 weeks, I knew I was pregnant at 4 weeks, I was convinced it was a little boy. I bought "little brother" clothes, I had a boy registery, just dumb little things to start to make pregnancy real.

I am excited for a little girl, but I miss the little boy I didn't even have, if that even makes sense. I feel like people's first question after I say having another girl is "do you think you want a third?". I feel like I was "suppose" to have a girl and boy, and be done. I just feel so sad, and then I feel sad about feeling sad.

Has anyone felt this? Am I a horrible fucking person for feeling this?