This is my January binge calendar 🫶

Had a court case on 31st so it was tough but I'm so proud!

Lesson learned nr1 - Fighting urge on at a time.

Focusing on singular binge urges and whether I overcame them and how many times was crucial for me to be able to get over a week binge free this month! And it was utterly impossible to get two in a row Fighting binging one day at a time just meant once I binged I would just binge 10+ times durning that day since day is blown. Every single fight matters

Lesson learned nr2 - Stress eating is heavenly better than binge eating; tiniest steps to stay in control

Durning such a shit stressful time it was impossible to not stress eat. So I stopped fighting it. The difference between stress eating and binge eating durning stress is that binging could and would always get worse. It's not just trying to soothe urself in maybe not the healthiest ways. It's pure self hatred and self harm. I learned that no matter what I thought my binging rock bottom is it can and will get 10 times worse. So I gave myself permission to eat but do things as simple as telling myself "take three breaths before taking another chomp". Ideally I would stop chewing and do it but more often than not I'd just continue chewing frantically but just get those breaths. It doesn't create resistance because I don't have to give anything up and I'm broadening my awareness and focus. Putting tiniest boundaries and listening to them really helped me to not binge spiral and actually be able to put down food once I was getting uncomfortable

Sorry for writing so much. I love y'all stay safe 🫰🫶🫰