I love you and I miss you

Isabella, I really enjoyed the time we spent together. I know we went through hard times a lot and for that I’m sorry. I am so so so sorry for treating you so horribly. I regret it all. I really did try my best being the best boyfriend for you but I was immature and stupid. I didn’t know what I was doing or what was best. You were genuinely so perfect for me and yes even though you had your flaws I loved every single part of you Isabella.

When you told me you moved on and you slept with someone else, that really broke me. I thought there was still love between us and maybe our relationship could’ve been fixed but I was wrong. I am really broken without you. All those memories we spent together, all the times we’ve been so intimate, all the I love yous and all the cuddles, i don’t know how to throw all that away. I have been suffering and going through a lot these past few days and I don’t know how I’m going to do everything without you. What upsets me the most is whatever I end up accomplishing or doing good in, you won’t be there by my side like I wanted you to be. I wanted a whole future with you so bad.

But isabella I want you to know that I know that you deserve to be loved too. Yes I am angry, yes I am hurt. But I understand. You deserve to move on and have a good relationship with someone else. As heartbroken and a mess that I am right now I also want the best for you. I just can’t fathom the fact that you slept with someone else while talking to me and didn’t tell me when we both agreed that we have to tell each other these things. I just wish you told me you were planning on moving on so I could of just left instead of feeling so stupid and worthless about myself.

I’m always open to talk to you in the future. But I am going to try move on from you. I really wish we could’ve worked out and maybe in another life we did. Maybe have that life we always talked about. A part of me will always love you. Please take care of yourself if you do end up reading this isabella. Goodbye