OP ko thoda emotional support chaiyye (wanna let it out)

so dekho aaj tha hindi ka exam.. which didnt go that well..i didnt have time for comprehension (like wtf was that comprehension i didn't understand a single word in it!) and kinda fked up (i think i'll lose around 5-6 marks over there).. and grammar was okay-ish..not bad but might lose like 2-3 marks.. literature and writing was easy so thats good.. but the thing is that i wanna get around or above 96% and i've been working very hard for it.. social and hindi were one of my biggest fears and after studying a lot, my social paper went really well (i got 63 in pre-boards and this time i'll be getting above 76).. i studied really hard for hindi too but it went like this.. and apparently CBSE doesnt replace additional subject (for me its IT) with language unless the student fails in the subject.. now if they replace hindi with IT, i can easily get above 95% because i'm very good in IT and can score full too..

but because hindi cannot be replaced i'm feeling like shit rn for not doing the paper well.. my entire percentage would be fked bcz of hindi alone.. now i'm feeling underconfident about math too for some reason.. for context math, sci and IT are my strongest subjects.. and i scored 78.5/80 in pre-boards and given the gap days i can score full too... but because of hindi i feel like shit rn and i'm losing confidence in math.. i really really wanna score good in math and forget about hindi but it just doesn't go out of my mind... so i wanted to let it out here.. any support would be appreciated.. i really need to talk to someone rn😔.. my parents said it's fine and i still study well but their silent expectation kills me..