Exhaustion

Do you ever get tired of being the one to try to fix things that you didn’t break? As in tired of feeling like you’re having a constantly do all this work in therapy,or reaching out to people to try to keep from drowning, or forcing yourself out of bed, or to eat or whatever it is that we feel is broken, when you weren’t the one that caused the trauma? I don’t know if I’m explaining it right, but it just feels so… unfair to struggle and hurt and claw your way from the bottom when someone else put you there. And it’s a true slap in the face that that person or those persons are just out there living their life seemingly carefree. I don’t know I guess I’m just struggling this morning with trying to make sense of things and I feel like all I’m doing is sinking deeper and deeper. And the worse it gets the less I feel like anyone understands just how bad it is.