I hate that I can't stop watching porn

I just can't seem to put the habit away. I feel worthless. I hate the way it's warped my mind since early childhood. All the damage can't be undone.

I can only imagine how disgusted my family and old friends would be if they saw what I saw.

I've pretty much given up on ever getting into a relationship. Who would want to be with someone so weird and creepy?

I honestly just want to separate myself from everyone, die alone, and be forgotten.

Edit: I wanted to thank everyone that left a response on my post. This got a lot more attention that I had expected, which is overwhelming, but I'll try to put the advice given into practice.