Am I being selfish/irresponsible?

I (m 39) want to attend a catholic mass and possibly learn more about the faith. My wife and I are both ex-mormon and left that church during COVID (the shutdowns gave us time to reflect on long standing problems we had had with the LDS faith). We left for different reasons: she realized she only stayed for community; I left because I realized that as much as the LDS church says they are Christian, they are not.

At then end of the day, I still believe the basic, boilerplate thrust of Christianity, while my wife really does not. While she has expressed some support for me to go and attend a mass, I worry about how she might react when I go to actually do the thing. I worry about how this might upend my whole family.

As much as I feel called to the church, I also can’t shake feelings of being selfish or irresponsible if my doing so creates friction in the home or drives us further apart. Since leaving the LDS faith, divorce has come up a few times.

What do?