I have decided to detransition.

I posted a post on here yesterday asking for advice on the fact I was transgender ftm and I wanted words if advice and comfort that God loved me still. So yesterday I went through all the comments and they didn’t persuade me to do or not do the right thing but I had a deep though that I had been doing for months prior to this decision, and decided to embrace the gender that God gave me.

For context I was transgender female to male for around 7 years and the past 7 years was extremely dark, I constantly avoided prayer and going to the Lord because I knew deep down I was always going against him by planning on going through with hormone therapy and surgery’s. It took me down a dark route. Brought out jealousy and envy in me, anxiety and depression, self harm and substance abuse, alcohol abuse and I got beaten up a lot. This decision is like a weight lifted off my shoulder, I actually feel free.

To anybody who is struggling with transitioning and looking for a sign trust me, if you saw me you would never think I’d de transition but health is wealth. I will never be a man, or achieve being biological male. God does not make mistakes, you are loved and worthy of gods love. Find him and you will be free of all demons inside you.