The most tragic Character in all of the Cosmere

So I am going through all the cosmere again because uuhhhh why not? I am rereading Hero of Ages, and Chapter 62 was absolutely heart wrenching. It focused solely on the POV of the most tragic character in all of the Cosmere, Sazed.

We all know Sazed's history and physicality, "Harmony's missing bits". He found love after believing he wouldn't be able to be loved because his inability to perform a vital function in a romantic relationshsip. Tindwyl, the love of his life, and I can absolutely understand it. Their time together was legit adorable and unlike any other relationship in the Cosmere. The closest would be Wax and Steris, but that was really only half as special because Steris is the scholar and Wax isn't. Sazed and Tindwyl were able to create a work of beauty by researching the prophecies together and when Sazed is looking back at their work he saw the back and forth of their handwriting even switching passage by passage. It was so endearing reading that part. Then Tindwyl died.

Now Sazed was being influenced by Ruin which doesn't help. Sazed began questioning his faith, and his entire life's work. Coming through every religion he had in his metal mind. I am sure that Ruin was fudging a bit of it to strengthen Sazed's misery. He was looking for hope. He was looking for an answer. Looking to find what would happen to Tindwyl after she died. He poured through everything and couldn't find an answer. Thus cementing his depression and loss of faith.

Then he rose to godhood! He took in two shards! He was the most powerful being in the entire Cosmere. You know he searched high and low to find the answer to where Tindwyl is. Searching the Spiritual realm. Cognitive realm. Everywhere. And since Tindwyl was most likely highly invested, she lingered for a bit after death and saw Sazed go through all of this unable to help. Now that Harmony is a god he is beyond invested. And his life will only continue on presumably forever. Or until Harmony is destroyed thanks to one asshole (you know the one). He is barred from ever seeing the only love he has ever known and never even thought ppossible. Love is still out of his reach.

It jsut hit me. I am only slightly embarrassed because I was reading this at a Hooters while watching football. Being teary eyed in the middle of a bar is never a good thing. Damn you Sanderson!!!!!