I think I’m in love with one of my alters.

I’ve never really thought on it much until recently. It’s honestly a little scary. Maybe it’s just a childish crush and it’ll go away, but it’s like- I don’t know how long I’ve been unconsciously getting these feelings about her. I know I’ve always admired her and she was like a mother to me even though we only have a 5 year gap. I’m so confused. I just barely understand romantic feelings as it is, and she’s on the aro spectrum so she’d probably not be interested in me. She’s- the closest alter that I have in a sense of bond. We’ve known each other for years now and she’s so protective and hardly ever leaves my side. She’s my protector. I don’t know if love is the right word either.