My bad trip report

I never smoke weed, tried a few times but that's it.

I bought edibles, started with 2,5mg because I did tons of researches and they said it was better to start with a low dose and feel nothing than take too much and regret, so that's what I did.

I felt nothing on 2,5mg so I waited 24 hours to try 5mg, did that, felt nothing, maybe a bit tired.

The next day, I tried 10mg, waited a bit more than an hour, felt nothing, and I seriously started thinking I was part of the few people who couldn't metabolize THC in edibles, so decided to take another 10mg (big mistake).

I started feeling funny, but that quickly went downhill, I went in the bathroom to look at my face, and I saw it was yellow, but like vivid yellow, like my liver stopped working or something. I went ask my mom if I was yellow, she thought I was crazy (it was just hallucinations I had) and then I decided to tell her that I took edibles because I was SO scared, and the more I realized what I did, the worst it got, I started feeling dizzy, like the room was almost spinning, my heart was racing like crazy, and it kept getting worse and worse, so we went to the ER (I knew I wasn't going to die, but I thought if I was in the ER I would be safe, and I'm sorry if I wasted their time, I felt so ashamed during the whole process).

As soon as I spoke to the woman at the ER reception, and as I explained to her my symptoms, I fainted, I couldn't stand on my feet, so I went and tried to sit down on a chair, I was doing everything to try to distract me, at multiple times I felt this weird feeling that's hard to explain, but it was like my soul was trying to leave my body, and honestly I started to tell myself it's okay if I die.

My heart was racing and it was one of the most difficult part to deal with, because it was pounding HARD, like I never had that before.

Then I tried to lay down, putting my head on my mom's lap, and when I closed my eyes, I had so many scary visuals, like scary red scribbles, eyes and everything, I was afraid that eating too much edibles was going to make me crazy forever.

They gave me a drug to calm my heart because they told me I had tachycardia. And then I went home and tried to sleep it away.

I know it's all my fault and I should've been waiting for those 10mg to hit, but in my mind I didn't realize that 20mg could hit me THIS hard.

I think it's also a sign for me to not ever try this again, or any psychedelics, despite me being fascinated by them, I think my brain can't handle it, and it's wise to just decide not to