I'm done. I quit. I'm done

Alright... I'm over this... Day 19. I've been on this pack of pills under a month and I'm completely aware that it's going to take 3 months before I will be regulated.

I have been on my period for 19 days and I can't have sex because I find it disgusting. I feel gross. I feel horrible. My emotions are crazy...

I've have 10+ day periods since December and this is my third pack of pills trying to regulate my period somehow. Birth control is supposed to help. I am going crazy. My husband has been amazing and we have been trying to be intimate other ways, even having sex in the shower so it's less gross.

Before anyone asks, I can't go on an IUD because of my hypermobility, it may cause it to shift. I can't be off birth control because I don't trust just condoms and my husband can't do a vasectomy because he has a high likelyhood it wouldn't work

At this point, if my period stops soon, I will just start again next Wednesday because for some reason, it starts at the same time every day, but it just won't stop.

Since Monday, I've been in excruciating pain because I can feel Endo adhering to my intestines. I literally couldn't move and had to call out of work. My iron levels have to be down because the periods aren't light.

I'm over this. I'm done.