I absolutely hate that we broke up

I can’t do this anymore. It’s been 9 months and I don’t want to move on. He was my favorite person and I was so happy to hve met him because I thought this was my time to finally Be happy and be in love. I messed everything up because of my stupid overthinking. My stupid fucking mental health. It ruined everything. I know they say that after a certain there’s no way they’re coming back but I do wish I could wave a magic wand and make this break up go way. I would do anything to have him back. I miss him so much. This fucking hurts so much.