Offer me anything

I was exposed Nov of 23 and immediately was symptomatic. Breakouts, rashes, itches, tingles, dingles on and on. Here it is almost June and no relief in sight. I am not exaggerating when I say I have had non stop outbreaks and symptoms since exposure. This is insane!!! I can't take it.

Offer me anything... Offer me cancer, offer me being wrongfully accused and jail time, offer me financial bankruptcy, offer me a gun and a spot on the front line in Ukraine... I'll take over this bullshit!!!

I know why there is a not a cure. We suffer. We put our heads down and suffer. I no longer care. Seatbelts... nope, please let wreck and make sure I die. Drinking too much and liver failure... I hope. I literally walk across the street with my eyes closed and say to myself "Please hit me"

I'm not suicidal but seriously I wish I was, 40 year old male here, heterosexual, living in North Mississippi... I need help