Life is not fair, and we need to accept that.

I’m 27 years old, been wanting to be in a serious romantic relationship since I was 16, and that has not happened yet, despite making an insane amount of effort. Meanwhile, my friends have been in relationships for years, without even trying. I also complain about my health issues, such as back pain and gastrointestinal issues. Meanwhile, another friend of mine jumped head first into a pool and now can’t move his lower body, forever. I’m playing poker more seriously the past two years, and the game really taught me that you don’t “deserve” anything. Everything in life is random, decided by odds. You can make the right decisions, but still fail. You can make the wrong decisions, and succeed. I’m reading more books lately, and what I’ve learned is that we need to accept this. It is SO hard to accept. But we must. We can’t complain about it because the universe doesn’t care about your needs, like I said before, you don’t deserve anything really. This is depressing and quite hard to accept, but everyday I remind myself that this is life. And that I have to accept it. Because if I don’t, I won’t truly live. And since we have one life, we must live. I hope I made some sense and made you realize things you didn’t consider before. I was so mad these past few days, feeling injustice, but the fact that I’m still here, writing this and facing these challenges, means that I accept this reality. Without alcohol, without weed, just accepting.