Did i just ruined my manifesting journey?

I had an violent/mental manic episode (i think thats what its called?) again, the last time i had one was october. i struggle with mental health and getting into spirituality and LOA really helped me have hopes for who i am and my future. i just completely broke down today and physically hit/punch stuff in my room, cried A TON and screamed the loudest i could to get everything out. do i have to start over??? i dont know what to do. i am very scared that i have to re do all the shit ive been so committed on persisting like i am even scared to have emotions sometimes.