I am done with this

Obviously manifestation doesn’t work for me. It’s been 9 months and nothing. I lived in the end, l visualized, affirmed, truly believed, l have feeling and nothing. Now l only got depression. And if l ruined my manifestation l don’t care. I can’t return back my ex, he just hates me, he is serious man. And l am not strong mentally. I still believe in loa, but it’s not for me. I don’t have capacity to manifest good things. It’s over for me. I wish everyone good luck