MCA I almost cheated

I(F21) have a boyfriend(M28) for 2 years. I had my hoe phase way before I met him. Nagkakilala kami sa Telegram, agreed to be exclusive fubus, fell in love, and the rest is history. So lately we've been fighting a lot. Finances (since live in na kami), intimacy, quality time, basta madalas kami di magkaintindihan. Then someone sent me a message. We talked, then we agreed to meet up at a hotel somewhere in Caloocan. (he is a participant in AJ subreddit) Then kanina, I was about to take a bath because he said he's on his way already (malapit lang kasi ako sa place). I closed my eyes as I pour water on my head. My boyfriend's face suddenly appeared on the corners of my head. Naalala ko lahat ng happy memories namin. The way he treats me, the way he put so much effort in our relationship. His sacrifices, the feeling I am feeling whenever we hang out together. Those cuddles every night, his kisses every morning before going to work, his hardwork a his job to provide for me. I realized that it is bigger than lust, or any misunderstanding we have. Uminit yung mukha ko kahit nagbubuhos ako ng tubig. When I opened my eyes, I grab my towel and discontinued my bath. I immediately deleted my TG and other reddit account. I can't even imagine other man touching my body. (pero nagbalak e noh, lol) I just realized now how I love my boyfriend. Hindi ko kayang gawin sa kanya yun. Lahat pwede na naming pag-awayan. Wag lang yung ganung bagay. I checked our photos, remembering how precious the 2 years we spent together. That is irreplaceable. Now I feel guilty. And I promise myself to never ever be tempted. Because I love my boyfriend so much.