When did you start to feel better?

It’s been almost 2 months since I was abruptly discarded by my husband of a little over a year. We have been together for 3.5 years, and this is the 2nd time he has done this. He begged me to marry him and made so many false promises, and I think he only did so for status. Now we are getting a divorce, but I am feeling strung along as it should’ve been filed by now. So anyways, I have had to remain in contact. I stoped entertaining conversations not pertaining to our divorce, and I was met with threats of my car going away, him taking a dog, or him getting alimony from me. But then he would switch right back to, “I just want to know you and the dogs are safe.” Now I think he got the hint, but also wished me a merry Christmas so it’s hard to say. I loose sleep everyday, I have stress headaches, my whole nervous system is thrown out of wack. I just want to know when I will start to feel better. I swap between I know this is for the best even though I didn’t want this to happen to my marriage, and missing him. This sucks.