I failed my driving test today

I just failed my driving test today. Wala nakakaalam na I took my test. I was so nervous that I couldn’t start the car at first pero I think I did great until I got back to the office of the assessment officer and I HIT THE CURB - automatic fail. Gusto ko na maiyak sa harap ng officer at instructor ko pero pinigilan ko na lang. I thought makakapasa na ako, I’m so tired taking any driving lessons tas samahan mo pa yung bayad every time. I just needed a win after been so down past few weeks.

Anyways, I called my parents right after to let them know I failed. And I just cried and cried. Pero instead of making me feel better, naging worse pa yung pakiramdam because my parents talked about themselves instead.

Yung nanay ko sabi wag daw ako sobrang nerbyosa tas gayahin siya na naglakas loob matuto. Tas yung tatay ko sinabi na wag daw magpaka frustrated makuha agad license, if pagod na daw ako magquit nlng ako wala naman daw pumipilit sa akin magkalicense. Basta lahat ng sinasabi nila feeling ko about sa kanila ganito ganyan.

Gusto ko lang naman may kausap ako habang umiiyak, mailabas lang yung sakit. Pero wala, ganun lang din pala. Sana hindi ko na lang sila tinawagan. Ngayon wala ako mapagsabihan. I feel so alone.