Bcuz I'm bored

Ek toh jab bhi reddit kholti hu yeh bhai relationship ke posts sb dekhti hu (very happy for you guys tho 🥹), insta jao waha bhi yhi, chalo social media ko chhorr deti hai na. Irl baat kare toh meri 3 best friends, teeno relationships mein. 11th 12th mein toh bhai i still remember how mere desk (3 log including me) prr and samne ke desk (3 log) desk ke sb saath mein gapchap (yap) karte the free periods mein and ofc topic hota tha relationships boyfriend and literally I was the ONLY one who was single, I used to feel so left out and blank. On top of that, all my fellow peers would tell me "bhai tu toh kitni sundar pyaari hai tera koi banda kyu nahi h" Which is like bruh🤡🤡. Aisa nahi ki kabhi opportunities thi nhi but mujhe peer pressure mein date nhi krna tha plus didn't find the right guy, family wagera too and faltu ka jhanjhat nahi chahiye tha either aur padhai sb bhi tha. All in all, ig it was/is on me! So i don't get to complain ig but as I said I'm bored toh bhai mai toh karungi :p Ab loneliness ne toh mujhe bhi feel hota he hai and ab mai yeh itna dekh rhi hu sabka relationship wagera ki kabhi kabhi fomo hota hai ya fir badha he lonely aur left out lagta hai. Upar se mera love language physical touch type shii bhi hai (can't imagine myself in ldr) and now, I feel absolutely starved for some affection (romantic sense mein) 😭?A Btw yeh toh bss ainvayi yapping hai, mai peer pressure mein aakar ya impulsive hokar stupid decisions nhi lene waali obv Arre hn also yeh toh batana bhul he gyi, mere cousins and sibling tk relationship mein h— bye.