Depression = protection from ADHD

I’m coming out of a long and bad depression. A few weeks ago I wanted nothing more than for my depression to end and now I wish it would come back. I realized tonight that despite the fact that my depression had so much to do with my ADHD, never accomplishing anything and feeling hopeless, it ended up safeguarding me from the frustrations of ADHD. I didn’t have to worry about not knowing where to start or feeling like an absolute loser because I was too depressed to do anything anyway. Now I’m back where I started. I want to cry and shutdown and go back to hiding in a depression hole. But I’m not depressed, and I can see what I was up to, so the jig is up. But now what the fuck am I supposed to do? Actually deal with my ADHD? Fml