Totoo ba lahat or I was used?

Problem/Goal: hindi ko alam if ginamit lang ba ako nung manliligaw ko o genuine yung pinagsamahan naming dalawa for the past 5 months.

Context: So I met this guy sa dating app around September last year. He just got out of a 6 yr relationship 3 months ago so at first di ko sya inasahang mapupunta sa something serious. Kumbaga dates lang. And I was clear naman from the get go na I am not into hookups or ons as I am not a casual person. He made it clear naman na harmless sya and he just want to get to know me. We talked for 3 weeks walang tigil and we've decided to meet each other kahit na malayo kami sa isa't isa(roughly 4 hr drive balikan). He still insisted na bumiyahe para masundo at mahatid ako. The date was fun. We clicked kaagad and walang halong awkwardness. After the date, hinatid na nya ako sa nearby plaza to talk. I was surprised na nag ask sya ulit for a second date sa susunod na linggo agad. After that, sunud sunod na yung dates namin. Walang linggo na hindi sya umeffort bumiyahe papunta samin. Until I asked him na what are his intentions, he said na gusto nya akong maging gf. I was still hesitant kasi nga galing sa long term relationship but whatever I am 27 and an NBSB so pumayag ako manligaw sya but on one condition, magpakilala sya sa mama ko and say his intentions clearly. Ginawa naman nya. Halos linggo linggo kaming nasa bahay kaya pati si mama napamahal na sa kanya. I even introduced him to my fam na. Ganon setup namin til this January 2025. Last kita namin was January 3rd and after that I was baffled bakit parang biglang nagbago sya. Di na ganun kadalas updates and something just shifted from the guy I knew from before. Tinry ko pa rin sya intindihin kasi nag heads up naman sya before na mabbusy sya this month but it's still bothering me bakit ganon kadrastic yung pagbabago nya. This January din ang birthday nya and I was looking forward na isurprise sya but sabi nya uuwi raw sya sa province nila to celebrate with his grandparents pero di naman nya ako inaya or what. Mind you, this was the same guy na pinuntahan ako ng November 1 sa amin kahit na Ma traffic dahil Undas and birthday pa ng lola nya na halos tumayong nanay nya. Pinalipas ko ng ilang araw after his birthday and I have decided to ask him if nakikitaan nya ba kami ng direction and he started enumerating stuff na magiging hindrance daw sa pagwwork sa relationship namin. Sa madaling salita, pinupush nya ako palayo. We didn't talk for a day after that conversation pero nag usap kami the night after. He confessed that He loves me so much pero he thinks that he got someone pregnant(casual lang daw 'to. ayon sa kanya) and recently lang nya nalaman(January 3 to be exact. That explains the drastic change.) Nag explore pala si kuya mo right after his long term relationship tapos nakabuo pala ng bata before nya ako makilala. He insisted that they stopped it na nung nakilala nya ako.

In addition, sadly I am also carrying his child. I was about to tell him the news nung birthday nya but ako pala yung gugulatin nya. I tested the waters to know what's going to be his plan if pati ako nabuntis nya but he was so unsure and ang sinabi nalang nya "akala ko nagkaroon ka na?". Apparently it was implantation bleeding. Seeing how unsure he was of me, minabuti ko nalang na hindi sabihin sa kanya na I am also pregnant. Sinabi ko nalang na I had a miscarriage and ang sabi lang nya is walang ka amor amor na "sorry". Walang bakas ng pagaalala.

I keep on questioning now, if lahat ba ng pinagsamahan namin totoo or ginamit lang nya talaga ako. Ayoko mag tanim ng sama ng loob kasi it's not like official kami nung nangyare yun. Ni hindi pa kami nagmmeet nung nabuo yung bata. Kaya I am so lost right now. I am so hurt. Di pa nakakatulong na sya yung kaunaunahang guy na pinakilala ko sa fam ko at minahal ko ng ganito. Last kita namin we were so sure of each other, ngayon strangers na ulit kami.

Previous attempts: I reached out for a proper closure but he said di na nya ako kayang harapin after what he did to me.