I hated pregnancy so I can’t believe I’m saying that I miss my kids being in my belly

I just felt so close to them, and could keep them safe at all times. Now that we’re separate human beings, I feel so far from them somehow. I absolutely hated being pregnant and hated how my body suffered but I just miss my babies and I being one. Idk how to explain it. I’m terribly sad watching them grow up, become more independent.. my one year old seems so grown up now. When he stopped needing me to hold him for feeds and burp him, I cried so hard. I didn’t realize the last time would be so soon.