I have intense weird obsessions and hyper fixations
I realised that throughout my life, i often have these weird hyper fixations ont random things that i come across. Ive been obsessed with clowns, teeth, eyes, legal drama in my home town, this shitty landlord in my city and stuff like that. When i start hyper fixating on objects i get this weird like satisfaction and “love” when i think about them and like i want them to be everywhere with me i go. My tattoos are all things ive hyperfixated on in the past (clown, teeth, eye). Im basically like HOLY SHIT I FUCKING LOVE THIS THING OMG OMGOMG!!!!1!!1!! I go absolutely feral for the thing for like days, weeks, sometimes months. As for hyperfixation on drama/ real people, i start getting so obsessed with it i stalk everything on internet to learn all that i can on it. I have a 5 page document of all the sus shit the shitty landlord did and i even discovered information that the press didnt know about him. As for the drama, it was consuming me to a point it was all i could think about, i would constantly look on facebook to see if there were updates, i even texted my ex to get more information about it. Someone was threatening to go to court and i was ready to search up when the hearing was so i could attend. I have to say i am a law student so ofc legal stuff is in my interests but like this is lowkey extreme. I also notice i sometimes get these intense urges of love and obsession for my boyfriend, like some weeks i wont even think about him (usually when im depressed) and other weeks im so obsessed that i want to like crawl in his skin and eat him almost. I dont even know how to explain it but these love urges make it feel like cuddling and kissing is not enough, that no matter how close i am to him its not enough. Anyways, i was wondering if being extremely hyper fixated on certain things was common with bipolar and id like to know if any of you guys have experienced a similar feeling. Is this normal or should i talk about it to my provider? I am medicated right now and i have noticed my obsessions are not as intense but i still have them.