hypo even on meds

i keep waking up at 4am. i’m blowing all my checks. cut a new eyebrow slit. got a new piercing. and this is all on my new meds. no matter what meds i take im always hypo. i don’t know how to get it to stop. i’m so restless to the point where i want to bash my head into a wall for the hypo to stop. i want to be depressed again because at least i could feel something