What was the most obvious sign of your sexuality that you ignored/repressed?

I think a lot of us here know what it's like to question your sexuality and not accept it. We've pushed away thoughts about the same gender and told ourselves that we're definitely straight and that all straight men/women have these experiences.

But what was the biggest one that you experienced that you still pushed aside and told yourself you were straight?

I'll go first:

I was in a coffee shop when I was 19, waiting in line. The barista was a guy about 2-3 years older than me. I had never seen a man that I thought was that attractive. It was literally like having air sucked out my lungs. My mouth went dry and by the time it was my turn to order my brain was swirling. I don't know for sure but I think my voice went so high that I must have sounded like Tinkerbell 🤣🤣. He smiled at me and I think my knees actually buckled. And yet despite all of that and having some very NSFW thoughts about him for the rest of the week I still told my stupid self that I couldn't possibly be bi 🤦. Denial and internalised homophobia can be such a bitch.