The painful questions you get as a a parent

This post is mostly a vent because I don't really have anyone to talk to.

I just hosted a small get together the other night, and I had some friends together that I haven't seen in a while. My two babies were there, and they got tons of attention. So, of course someone had to ask me if I'll have another one. I was trying to avoid the question all night because it's a major pain point for me. So, I had to reply with "I don't think so" even though I do want to have another one so badly. I can't, though, because my husband doesn't want to have another one. So, I just get to be sad and depressed about it for the rest of my life. I'm so upset about it today. I'm getting to an age where it's going to be too late in a few years. It just makes me so sad, resentful, and bitter.

Another question came up about the color of my childrens' hair. It's a unique color, so everyone always has to ask where it comes from. Unfortunately, it comes from an abusive parent that I am no longer in contact with. It's painful and embarrassing for me to explain, and people ask about it quite frequently. It upsets me so much.

I'm just so sad today. I'm angry and my heart hurts. I'm tired. My husband keeps bothering me to get up and go do something with him and the kids. I just want to lay in bed and cry. This is also the last day of my winter break.