I want to accept it(rant)

Sorry this is just an immature rant about whats been going through my mind lately. I’m tired of this disability everyday I wish I was normal it’s unfair knowing ill live my entire life like this never experiencing what its like to have 2 normal arms I know I sound immature but I hate it I want to actually feel like a man someone who can protect I also want to just do things normally such as play video games basketball go to the gym train any sort of martial arts I know I can adapt to these but its just not the same I will always be at a disadvantage no matter what I’ve tried many times to actually accept it and love myself but no everytime I look in the mirror I remember that this is what defines me “the disabled kid” and it will always be this way till the day I die