Questioning things again?

I had top surgery six weeks ago, not on T (but plan to be soon?) and I use he/they pronouns. For the first time in this two-year journey, i'm starting to wonder if i'm actually a woman. I used to hate being called she, girl etc but yesterday and today i started to miss those things. I thought more about T and some of the effects (balding, acne) make me nervous. I don't know if this is regret or just normal grief/questioning but it feels kind of distressing.