Has Anyone Ever Beat Binge Eating?

I had bariatric surgery (sleeve) in March and have lost 184 pounds. I started at 412 pounds with limited mobility, on blood pressure meds and a size 32/34/5X. I’m now off blood pressure meds and a size 18/20/XL.

I’m so proud of myself! I’m happier than I’ve ever been, I’m social, my energy level is super high. This surgery has truly changed my entire life and, for the first time ever, I’m excited for the future.

I felt like I had finally struck a good balance with food. I was starting to really enjoy eating with people rather than eating in solitude (my old behavior), felt like I was allowing food to work for me (energy, etc) and enjoying it in moderation - like people say they do and I never believed was possible haha

December was filled with my birthday, the holidays, a cancer/infertility diagnosis (my partner, not me). Between holiday goodies, stress and, maybe getting too comfortable with my success(?) binge eating has reared its ugly head and I’m really struggling with it. For the last 2 weeks, I’ve still been drinking my gallon and a half of water, still having my protein shake in the morning, still getting my vitamins and steps in but I’m absolutely binging. In addition, my Vyvanse (for ADHD and Binge Eating Disorder) has been out (through no fault of my own) for a little over 2 weeks (I finally got it today!).

I usually weigh myself each day but I’ve steered away from the scale; today when I got on it, I was horrified to see a substantial gain. Now, I’m so scared I’m going to gain all my weight back and never get back on track.

Just looking to see if anyone has been thrown off post-surgery and has gotten back on track/continued to lose. Be kind, I’m already very disappointed in myself.