It might be done (tw suicide)

Today is January 7, 2025. Yesterday my friend's husband recieved PAS for his long term battle with gastric cancer, up in Toronto (I live in the US and haven't seen these people in person for years). I lost my husband the same way (naturally though) last September. I know how it feels to lose your man. I have three beautiful kids, so I will not take my life, or try to. When my friend told me this was going to happen, a bit before Christmas, she told me she planned to kill herself the same day, because she didn't want to live without him. I know how that feels. We both agreed it would be hypocritical for any doctor to try to "help" her, while simultaneously causing the issue that was making her suicidal. So I was sworn to secrecy. The doctors didn't know. Her husband (rest in peace) didn't know.

Yesterday I got a text from her saying she'd gone home, denied offers of suppoet groups (as would I, how dare they) and was now preparing to kill herself. It was a triggering, painful text and she apologized for it. We talked for a long while. Then she went offline. I haven't heard from her since. I don't know what method she used, so there is a possibility she is still alive.

It sounds horrible, but if she is gone, I am jealous.

Note: I am not pro-suicide by any means. Only in this context, because neither of us have any other options. She doesn't have any children or family, unlike myself.

Edit: She survived and is being stablized in a hospital, so I've been told. They found her in her bedroom.