I felt so close to my manifestation.

My Sp and I had a falling out over my feelings for him. I saw hot and cold behavior from him and I was pretty sure he had feelings for me. But he shut me down firmly on Saturday night. I was sick and tired of getting nowhere with manifesting. So I determined I would be his girlfriend by 11pm that night. Now after about 2 hours I got a sticker message. I was elated after all he had no reason to message me. The I continued to affirm, the messages continued and we had dinner together for the first time. We spent an hour after dinner together talking. I wasn't as firm but robotically affirmed throughout the time that he is my boyfriend. And became flirtatious again.

Here's my problem. I did give him money because I knew he was in a tight place. Which I had known before dinner. I continued to affirm when I got home. Yet not even a good message. Its currently 4.30am where I am and I'm mid panick attack thinking all manifestation is a lie and I was a fool.

I just need someone to say something to me please. Or tell me why I get so close but never fully there. This was definitely my closest to manifesting my dream I've come but was it coincidence and I fooled myself?