I love you

I love you but I fucked it up so badly. I think you love me but you fucked it up so badly. If you choose not to be with me and I have to end things permanently it's going to fucking break me. I feel terrified to lose my best friends and the person who I'm in love with. All I want is you, it's all I can think about. Why am I not worth choosing. What about me is completely unlovable. I want to get in my knees and beg you to take me back. But whatever happens, I have to be ok with it, because I fucked up first. I love you. I love you. I love you.