I just want vent a little bit

I am very sad. I know it is not my fault and that it is simply fate that I was born the way I am. But that is no consolation. I simply cannot do anything right. An average person would not believe me if I told him something like that. I can understand because I would think that a person like me only exists in comedy movies.

Besides my low intelligence, I really cannot name a single positive thing about myself. How can anyone expect me to live a normal life? I would love to be able to get out of my skin but I cannot. A person cannot change those main characteristics about themselves, it is in their genes.

It is so strange to be me. I cannot understand myself. I cannot love myself because there is not a single valid reason to love myself.

I will say something that I told my therapist: When people build a house wrongly, it is only a matter of time before it collapses. It is the same with a person. If a person is built incorrectly (genetics, upbringing), you cannot expect them to live a good and happy life.

The problem is not only my low inteligence,the problem is that I can name anything positive about myself.