rationalize my delusions

so, i might be going batshit crazy. i've always had this crazy anxiety that the world is gonna get nuked and im gonna die. i was able to talk myself out of that one.

but then after that i was convinced i was getting signs that i was gonna die at 17 (2026/2027) and i was able to snap myself out of that. i was actually doing a lot better for a while and saw myself with a future again.

then recently, i watched this youtuber who does these yearly predictions that end up mostly all becoming accurate, and he did this whole bit about the world ending from nuclear war, and now i'm terrified again about both of those things and i'm convinced the random guy is right.

i know logically that a war wouldn't happen, i guess it's more about the emotional side and that awful prediction thingy.