PAWS or just me at week 3?

So I used to be a pain pill addict, I was taking roughly 2 Vicodin or Norco per day for roughly 4 years before trying to quit. I used Kratom to quit of course. I did feel better, wasn’t as bloated and didn’t really get a high from the Kratom, so I thought it was harmless.

Like I’ve mentioned in other posts, I truly believe Kratom would’ve worked IF I would’ve stopped Kratom after one week of use when getting off the pills…but hey we’re addicts so that’s not typically in our nature.

So after 5 years of daily Kratom use, maxing at 7 grams in the morning and 8 grams in the evening here I am.

Today is 3 weeks of no Kratom for me, I went CT for the most part (meaning I did take one Tylenol 3 at night on days 3 and 5). Over these past 3 weeks I’ve learned that Kratom is much more of a mental withdrawal than the lower grade pain pills. I’m talking mood swings like I’ve never experienced. With Vicodin and Norco it seemed like a purely physical withdrawal, and while Kratom does present the physical unpleasantries too my head has been all over the place.

I was thinking at 3 weeks I’d be much better, the first week was more physically painful, but it was mentally odd. During that week I had some depression BUT then I also had spurts of happiness too. Now at week 3 it’s pretty much all depression and fatigue. It’s almost like week 3 has been more challenging than the first week, anyone else feel this way? At least in the first week some occasional joy would wash over me.

Maybe I can handle the pain more than the emotional aspects of PAWS? At what point could it just be me? When I was younger I was depressed, but having done pills and Kratom for so long I don’t even remember who I really am without a substance in my system.

So just curious if anyone else has struggled at week 3 like this?