Tekken makes me beat myself

Title, whatever.

I (19m) beat myself when I lose in literally anything.

I am extremely competitive over the tiniest of things just to prove to others I am better than them.

So, I beat myself when I lose in Tekken to punish myself for not doing well enough.

This happens quite literally every single time I play this game.

I literally cannot play Tekken without beating myself until I am heavily bruised and can barely feel my own hands.