What was the main thing that made you realize holysh*t? I might actually have a big problem here?

I think for me it was when I moved out here to AZ. Being from Brooklyn NYC it was a lot more social, you walk everywhere. There is just a different culture. My drinking was fine. I could gauge it more. I would buy 2 beers and if I could walk downstairs and go to the corner bodega store to get another than I'm fine. But if I didn't feel like it then I wouldn't. Then I moved to AZ and I couldn't walk to the bodega.i couldn't walk anywhere. This drinking method I created was no longer going to work for me So I started buying in bulk beer. As to not have to drink and drive or just not have to go out at all. And I started to find myself not drinking just 2 beers. These bulk beers were now in my house. My binge drinking had gotten out of control...and that's when I knew.