Update, it's over

Update from earlier this week. I finally got to see my MM and talk to him (since we work together). He's even more torn up than I am.

He and his W are staying together. She said he could leave, but she was keeping the house and the kids. He could visit the kids on his days off if it was convenient for her. His kids are his world, so he chose them, and I'd hate him if he didn't chose them.

We are going to try and stay friends, with the option of trying again if he can ever leave her. But I think it's over for good.

I started some antidepressants this week and therapy next week. I know it'll be okay eventually but I feel crushed right now.