How long till it really works!!

I have been using tret .025 cream since July. Shifted to .025 gel in November.

I had to gradually drop all my actives as I kept blaming them for closed comedones.

I have checked all my hormones and nothing is bothering at the moment. In general I do have pcos but controlled.

I stopped Tret for couple of days and my skin was healing. But my doctor prescribed me Spironoloctone and Erythromycin lotion and also asked me to continue the Tretinoin so I am back on it.

But I can’t stop hating myself.

My current routine:

Am: splash with water. Dry and apply the Antibiotic lotion. Sunscreen when outside.

Pm: Double cleanse with inkey oat balm and wash face with Avene cleanance facewash. Apply Ordinary Moisturiser. Apply tret and another layer of Moisturiser.

I use paula’s bha once a week. (This really hells with the stubborn spots)

I used Anua’s spot serum few days last month but also dropped it.

I need help with my PIE and PIH. But im still getting closes comedones and flare ups. My skin is still very oily and my barrier is fine. No irritation. Just so many surprise cc and they end up in nasty flare ups

I want to stop tretinoin but then i dont want to. Im so devastated. Please help.