Boyfriend takes sex even after I say no…Am I overreacting by feeling this way?

Hi I’m a little nervous to post this, but I need some advice. Yesterday I saw my bf after a week of not seeing eachother and he instantly started feeling me up—which I like bc it makes me feel like he loves me more. But after his parents left the house we started talking about my pet who passed and I started crying so he consoled me. It was the sweetest thing he kept on assuring me I was okay and rubbing my hair. The second after I stopped crying he started to feel me up again and asking for sex. I said no and let’s just cuddle and he kept saying how hard I got him. He then turned me around, I started covering myself with my hand and kept saying “let’s just cuddle please baby” but I wasn’t stern in my voice bc I act rather feminine and submissive around him. He pulled my underwear down and was going to put it in raw so I told him to grab a condom, then told him again to just cuddle and that I missed not seeing him. He said it’ll be fast and he put himself inside me. He then asked if I wanted it fast or slow, so I asked if he could finish quickly—he did then flipped me around and tried to make me orgasm. He said “I don’t want you to feel like I’m using you” and stuff like that, but I was already so upset we had sex my stomach was turning, so I told him no and he kept trying. After a couples times I said it was really okay and he stopped- so I left to the bathroom. I think he knew I was upset because he kept on knocking on the door and asking if I was okay. He even got me ice cream when I left the bathroom and hugged me.

He does this a lot, the keep on asking until I give in, or just rubbing me up until I stop disagreeing. But he’s assured me multiple times before he wouldnt care if we stopped having sex, and it’s not why he loves me.

I can’t help to feel as if I’m overreacting, he’s the sweetest Angel to me. I just felt so disgusted during sex that time I wanted to cry. Should I have done something different? I feel sometimes it’s not really my choice so I just try to enjoy it and actually sometimes get into it. Because of that I feel like I’m overreacting.

Edit: I also want to point out that I havnt had a conversation with him about how I feel with this, this is his first relationship too. He was also raped in the past so I feel bad bringing anything up about sex he might’ve done to me.